“He is the One”

1st of June.

Half of the year has gone.

Sudden wake up in the early morning around 5 am today, and all I realized is that he was all over my mind since yesterday night after we parted.

Am I never sleeping yesterday night? I think so. When I lay in the bed alone yesterday night, I started to miss him and think about what we have been doing and together.

Every time when the feeling of missing him attacks, I will go to his blog to read his writing, or go to the site to see his pictures, or else, what can I do?

And, ridicular enough, I have the idea that I wish I could have the “sacred sand”, like the sand in the movie of the “Price of Persia” we watch together, that I could turn the time backward for many years ago, so I be able to know him much earlier, and can be with him whenever he wanted before now; and of course, I could be “The absolute One” for him everlastingly. A silly thought, I know.

Still wanted to see him, an urge really deep in the heart, affected the mind, somehow uncontrollable. But I still will do this, just because of him, no one else. A silly decision again, I knew that.

He starts to work for the next few weeks, from early to night; in a way, which means I cannot see him for at least two weeks, then again, he will go abroad for holiday, and then the new semester commence; I hope I can tolerate missing him, and can control the desire to see him, when he starts to come back to his study. The distraction from me will certainly affect his concentration. Thinking about this, should I keep away from him, I ask myself, but, can I? I doubt.

He is the one. To me. And always be, I believe.

And, I know, lots of things from me are “unfair” to him…

Apologize from me. Dear.
-- 1st June 2010

(p/s. Ring him again this afternoon around 2.15, just to chat to him and listen to his voice, this will makes me feel more comfort. Haha, it is like I am addicted to “something” or in “drug”. Miss you extremely much.)