"Waiting"

Two more days will be June.

It was raining this afternoon, therefore has to cancel my plan to go swimming.

I was in the local library again, just to use the internet provided here to be able to online, and of course, the purpose is to see whether he is around or not.

He is a nice chap. Waiting for him is become a habit to me nowadays, this is all because I got so many things wanted to share with him, and can’t wait to tell him, or should I say, we are be able to share our secret and feeling, and I hope I can be his mentor or close buddy to help him, to guide him and to give support when he is in trouble, and to see him grows as a successful man.

Every time chatting to him will makes me feel guilty. It is because I think I taken up too much of his time, and some time we chat endlessly; it is just because I am missing him almost every day; but what about him, sometime I ask myself, is he willing to chat with me, or is it because he don’t want to disappoint me, therefore carry on chatting with me regardless of his own feeling.

Anyway, without chatting with him or see him will makes me feel unease all day long.

Like today, he is not around. I feel a bit lost.

If I keep carry on like this wanted to chat with him, I think one day I will scare him off, so pardon me, would you.

The night falls with no mercy, too dark to be for someone like me, and I have to go home, can’t wait for him for too long. – 29th May 2010